A feel good song...

These past two nights have been pretty difficult, I've cried myself to sleep both nights. I feel sad that I am leaving everyone I love and everything i've ever known. Change is a scary thing. This song helps me get through the tough times. I really love the Superchicks. I don't really feel like i can relate to anyone either because no one is leaving when i am leaving and no one really understands how i feel. I mean yes, people I am leaving behind will miss me but they won't have to go through all of the stresses of college and volleyball. They will still be in the familiar setting i've always been used to. I guess the only thing that is constant is change and change.

This is just my biggest adventure i've had to face of my life yet and I am just overwhelmed with emotions. Part of me wants to just go in a hole and say my goodbyes now so i can get it over with but the other part of me wants to see everyone as much as possible. All I really want to focus on though are my close friends and my family, mostly my mom. It has been me and her for as long as I have known and all of that is about to change. It's going to be different but this will make me a stronger person.

Tonight I pray that God continues to work in my life with volleyball and using volleyball to be a positive christian student athlete role model. I pray that God prepares my heart to leave all of my loved ones behind and embark on my new journey. I pray that he continues to ease my restless soul and calm my nerves and help me rest my confidence on him and give him my burdens. He did say "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthews 11:28. Continue to guide me along your will for my life lord and hold my heart in your hands. amen.